Nightmares

The sound of sirens going on, people wearing saffron clothes are yelling Bangladeshi go back, and there are rallies over the way. Mobs are well equipped with the swords and knives which were (stolen) taken from the museums. I can hear a knock at my place, I looked at my mom she gestured me not to open it.

So we all are curled up in my room, hoping for police to come and save us!

I am asking my mom why they are troubling us, we are not Bangladeshi. She says they think all Bengalis are Bangaladeshi. Then I can smell petrol and the liquid spatting sound. Suddenly they broke the door and they burn the entire place alive…….

I woke up from my dream, it’s 3:07 am and it’s really cold outside. I googled the meaning of dreams about losing family members in a fire.. it says you are insecure.. I tried not to think much about it..then I listen to my favorite song in a loop. The phone still reads 3:30. I started checking my emails, where Ariana wrote it’s really disappointing to see that you are making so many mistakes. I hope you will not do this again! I typed sorry and then tried to sleep again..

Someone is chasing me from behind, I m running…I’m running …my legs are not able to cover up the distance. I can’t catch breath anymore…I was looking behind and saw those men are still behind me.. I crashed into a wall and then I saw 2 men from the right and 2 men from left have surrounded me. They are pulling my legs and trying hard to pull down my shorts.. I scream just let me go please… they just laughed.. and they managed to do…

I woke up the clock reads 3:16 am and I’m shaken..I went to the room, tried to call mom.. but she is sleeping as she has to wake up at 5.. I went back to my room look at the window.. and try to think something good that happened today.. can’t think of any.. my sister told me if you are getting scared of anything.. do more of it.. you won’t be !! But how can I do more of a dream! I googled again the meaning of getting raped dream.. so I got is you are really insecure.. I drank water and tried to get off the blanket.. read about Phyton coding and how to implement it on site ( I really do hate coding).. sadly it didn’t help!

The voice of automated woman announcing of an upcoming train with details is coming and I’m buying my favorite packet of chips. I am asking my sister to buy me a book. She says no, I was mad at her. Suddenly in the next moment train arrives, I’m all blank.. I can’t see anything and when I woke up.. people told me that my sister came under the train.. I’m running and crying and feeling helpless to check on her.. all I could see is a big train and my sister’s hand..the clock reads 3:40 am, and I got a mail from Ariana saying

Hi Dwiti,

This is the last campaign that went out, can you please check and let me know what went wrong?

Shocked,

Ariana

I grabbed my phone check the social media accounts, I have schedule entire wrong tweets and people wrote back to her saying it’s really upsetting to see this. I typed sorry and try not to think about it. This time I didn’t google what does that dream meant! I watched some funny videos to catch some sleep, I slept at 5….

I went out with my friends to a jungle safari.. we were playing truth and dare, suddenly a man who has 2 horns and wearing a black dress whose body is cut in half lies next to me.. I couldn’t think of anything to do, then suddenly that guy is following me and suddenly that guy is crawling towards me.. yes you know what happened next the clock reads 2:50 am and I was frustrated to have this for past 6 months.. there innumerable things which I tried and that came to my mind.. but nothing helped..

These nightmares continued after every two days.. One day something scary again came up. As anxiety followed the routine, I got a mail from my boss saying that she is upset that I forgot to schedule the tweets.. I decided to quit my job as I can’t handle any more of this dream stress plus job stress.. I can clearly hear the voices behind me laughing or calling me mad!

But, that’s all I thought was the right thing to do at that time!

I could have tackled these nightmares in a better way, or I think what I did was the only option I had.

What do you think? Let me know in the comment.

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